I have been masturbating for about 20 years now consistently.
I think I am compulsive masturbater. I never have any wet dreams(or cum discharge while sleeping) because I masturbate 3-10 times a week for the last 20 years.
I don't have a social life. I don't have any friends. People know me and I suppose some of them do want to talk to me but I guess I am afraid of them so I just stay away from them. That's the psychological damage porn and masurbation has caused me.
During the last couple of months I am feeling I no longer get hard easily. I am having trouble getting hardon. My penis when its erect used to be bigger but now I suppose it has become thinner and shorter and I am not feeling the same that I used to be.
I think I have already spent the best time of my life and now its all downhill. I am afraid of consulting a doctor about it. I guess all the machinery and organs have a life and overuse causes damage. Same goes for our penises. Last time I had sex with a real girl(prostitute) it was not a very happy experience. I enjoy masturbating a lot more than paid sex. One reason being I am too lazy to go and look out for whore and the other being obviously it requires money.
I remeber the whore that I last had sex with wasn't really happy with my penis and I was having a hard with shoving my penis into her. Because mine wasn't getting that hard.
I think I am no longer fit for a woman. The reason is again masturbation. It has damaged my health and my penis and my brain over the year far beyond repair.
Obviously this isn't the life I had planed for me. I want to be a healthy social guy who is liked by everyone. I want to play football and bodybuilding and have big muscles like movie actors. But is this the end of life for me and I will never be able to live my dream?
I think I am compulsive masturbater. I never have any wet dreams(or cum discharge while sleeping) because I masturbate 3-10 times a week for the last 20 years.
I don't have a social life. I don't have any friends. People know me and I suppose some of them do want to talk to me but I guess I am afraid of them so I just stay away from them. That's the psychological damage porn and masurbation has caused me.
During the last couple of months I am feeling I no longer get hard easily. I am having trouble getting hardon. My penis when its erect used to be bigger but now I suppose it has become thinner and shorter and I am not feeling the same that I used to be.
I think I have already spent the best time of my life and now its all downhill. I am afraid of consulting a doctor about it. I guess all the machinery and organs have a life and overuse causes damage. Same goes for our penises. Last time I had sex with a real girl(prostitute) it was not a very happy experience. I enjoy masturbating a lot more than paid sex. One reason being I am too lazy to go and look out for whore and the other being obviously it requires money.
I remeber the whore that I last had sex with wasn't really happy with my penis and I was having a hard with shoving my penis into her. Because mine wasn't getting that hard.
I think I am no longer fit for a woman. The reason is again masturbation. It has damaged my health and my penis and my brain over the year far beyond repair.
Obviously this isn't the life I had planed for me. I want to be a healthy social guy who is liked by everyone. I want to play football and bodybuilding and have big muscles like movie actors. But is this the end of life for me and I will never be able to live my dream?
