Dunno dude anxiety and depression is very serious I dont know why people are joking around like that. I will tell you how to solve this problem, this is really the only way so please pay close attention. Go to your doctor and get a prescription to xanex. Xanex is a pill that is used to treat anxiety disorders and panic disorder, and it is perfect for you. However, and this is the important part, in my experience xanex is very weak. Taking 1 or 2 will do nothing for you. Especially with how bad your anxiety must be, you should take at least 10 pills, maybe more. Man I gotta tell you, it will be such a relief! I recommend you get some alcohol because as soon as the xanex kicks in your anxiety will be gone and you will want to party. Trust me. Just start drinking the alcohol as soon as you take the pills, that way you will not have to wait. All your problems will be over if you follow my advice OP. Trust me.