I'm in so much of a better place that 5 years ago feels like a different lifetime. I used to be broke, anxiety ridden, borderline depressed, and chronically unhappy because I could no longer make monies online. The truth is, the only thing I enjoying was making the quick and easy money. I dislike just about everything there is when it come to being involved with marketing. I spent several years trying to convince myself that this was my path because I had my first taste of success here. I was forever living in the past, I was arrogant, and I failed at everything I tried because I needed to surpass by previous 'success'.
I remember the day when I finally let all of this go. I didn't read any special book or use one of the top 10 groundbreaking life hacks. I was just listening to the Joe Rogan podcast and it hit me that he and most of the people on the podcast are pretty chill, happy, and fun people and they did shit they enjoyed. It finally hit me that I'll never be they type of person with this internet marketing pipe dream bullshit. I just went out and got a regular crappy job in customer service and poured all my free time into learning Linux. I already love this shit and a quick Google search let me know that Senior Linux Admins make $115k+ a year and most of these guys are self-taught and have no degrees.
Zoom forward to now and hot damn, now I'm the happy guy you might find on a podcast. I'm married now and I'm enjoying this career path.