If we're being honest here, winners don't usually ask complete strangers for psychoanalysis in the public, nor do they waste their time on YouTube or describe their behavior as lazy.
You either want it or you don't, and your choices indicate your preference.
That's too good of a first post for it not to have been an existing member's extra account... Check him out, mods!
be poor. you will suddenly discover motivation.
Grab your laptop and gtfo the house. Go to a public/college library with wifi. Don't sign on to any messengers.
Oh and working in coffeeshops helps too. You don't want people watching you dicking around on the internet.