I'm Living A Lie, But Too Afraid To Leave.



I grew up being taught (brainwashed) that I should go to school, get married, get a job, don't drink or do drugs, and go to church every Sunday so I can go to heaven when I die. My family, my siblings, my wifes family, and my grandparents are all religious and share this DOGMA.

Now, at 28 years old, and after 5 years of marriage, I have stopped believing in everything, God and marriage included. I just don't believe people are truly happy living this life, and I don't believe that we were meant to suffer through life being holy so we can go to heaven.

I haven't had anything insane happen in my life, and my wife is a loving caring woman, but I just don't want to do it anymore. I have held in my desires for so long, that all I can think about is partying, travelling the world, and fucking thousands of women.

I am currently living a lie. I go to church every Sunday with my wife and her family. I volunteer. I act like everything is fine. When I am alone I drink, I go to strip clubs, and more.

Anyone else in this situation? Too scared to tell EVERYONE I love I want to go a different direction. Too afraid to face all the tears that will be shed.

Bro I can help you out with church... Just print this out sign it and hand it over to the Priest next Sunday. http://www.wickedfire.com/shooting-shit/124584-religion.html

I'm sure that will get you out from under. No need to thank me btw.
 
I grew up being taught (brainwashed) that I should go to school, get married, get a job, don't drink or do drugs, and go to church every Sunday so I can go to heaven when I die. My family, my siblings, my wifes family, and my grandparents are all religious and share this DOGMA.

Now, at 28 years old, and after 5 years of marriage, I have stopped believing in everything, God and marriage included. I just don't believe people are truly happy living this life, and I don't believe that we were meant to suffer through life being holy so we can go to heaven.

I haven't had anything insane happen in my life, and my wife is a loving caring woman, but I just don't want to do it anymore. I have held in my desires for so long, that all I can think about is partying, travelling the world, and fucking thousands of women.

I am currently living a lie. I go to church every Sunday with my wife and her family. I volunteer. I act like everything is fine. When I am alone I drink, I go to strip clubs, and more.

Anyone else in this situation? Too scared to tell EVERYONE I love I want to go a different direction. Too afraid to face all the tears that will be shed.


You live once.

You are going to die.

You are dying every day.

Tomorrow may never come.

You choose what you want for your life.

Other adults can take care of themselves.


(if you have kids; you are fucked, you need to think of them first; you brought them into this mess)

(if you are trolling, I must say I believe Dwight has out-trolled you (that is if he is trolling?))
 
> Fuck the guy that says you don't "deserve" happiness.
> Life is too short to not go through it happy IMHO

I never said don't do it.

What I said was, if he hurts people in the pursuit of his own happiness and discards the consequences of his past decisions, it's got nothing to do with rejecting stupid religious explanations of how the universe works. It just means he is a sociopathic asshole.

You do only have one life, and you should pursue happiness. But if you shit on other people along the journey, you're doing it because you're a weak, selfish cunt with a poor education and upbringing, not because you lack theism.
 
I think I'd get bored of going out every night. I did that from 19-23 and it was fun got old. Family and close friends > random strangers at bars + addiction to substances.
 
The sad thing about all this is that the OP won't listen to what others have to say. He will follow his desires no matter what. Sometimes you have to really mess your life up to understand what living is really all about.
 
I was thinking about this recently and it seems like this is a symptom of our modern beta-male generation: porn-addicted, video-game playing, weak-minded males who think they "deserve" happiness. The funny thing is that everyone thinks that they're going to be FREE and go out and fuck all sorts of gorgeous women.

I think this sums up my issues.
 
Fuck you asshole. Just because you don't believe in fairies any more doesn't mean you can act like a selfish fucking dick without any responsibility or consequences for your actions and choices. That's not what atheism offers you, and I take offence at your implication.

Most atheists are more fucking upright, moral and socially responsible than any fucking stupid cunt christian, as you've just demonstrated. You need the threat of a God to stay married and keep your dick in your pants? Without that, you've got no self control, sense of responsibility or empathy for others?

Go ahead - fuck up your marriage and live your life selfishly and irresponsibly, but don't fucking use atheism as an excuse, you fucking tard.
Tebow.

U mad?
 
You will never be happy until you figure out what is important in life . Not whats important to you at this moment of selfishness or lustful desires or dreams.

Wether or not you stop believing in the Almighty God ,
The day will come when you will have to answer for your
Ways .
( if there is no hell or heaven what will happen with people like hitler when they die , or murdering child molesters, do they just die and thats it). I know that is not the way it will go down.
 
Dude youre most likely a faggot i mean what makes u think that 1000 women are gonna want to sleep with you and if you have a job how the fuck you gonna make the money to travel?
 
[ame=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MOY-jJeOeBk]You're Going to Die! - YouTube[/ame]

The start is a bit slow and the lion is a bit cheesy but it's worth the watch.

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You can't make your wife, family, or anyone else around you happy if you're miserable. In fact, all you're going to do is make them miserable as well. The best thing for everyone around you is to get out and do what makes you truly happy. You might have to hurt your wife by leaving her now but at least she'll have the opportunity who can make her truly happy rather than scraping out an existence with someone who's trying to get as far away from her as possible.

If it was me, I would explain to her the whole situation and tell her that you need your own time and space to work out what you really want in life. You don't have to divorce her but it sounds like you need a lot of time away from her.

Go out and fuck women and get drunk till you work out that leaves you feeling hollow and empty. Once you've got it out of your system then all you need to find what you really love and go after that.

I went through this same thing a while ago and it was hard. It was also the best thing to do.

She's now with a guy who makes her very happy. I'm happier and more fulfilled than I've ever been.

It took her a while to see that what I was doing was in the best interests of both of us but she's come around now.

If you want to talk to someone about this, feel free to drop me a PM. I've worked with guys in your position a few times and I know what it's like to go through it myself.

Good luck,


L.
 
You exercise courage. That is what you do.
Nothing wrong with dropping or getting a G-d. (We all change. Permanence is an illusion. ) If that is the issue (which it isn't) then you come clean with it with your wife. Don't be a dick about it because if she is way religious you gonna disrupt her world and that takes time to adjust. You have had a while to come back to balance.

If you want out of the marriage then you come clean with that.

What you don't do is sneak around. Stop that shit ASAP. It will come back to bite ya.

The biggest thing is that you gotta look at you in the mirror. Stack the deck in your favor so that you smash the mirror out of anger and guilt as little as possible.

With a cigar lit,
Beentheredonethat
 
You will never be happy until you figure out what is important in life . Not whats important to you at this moment of selfishness or lustful desires or dreams.

Wether or not you stop believing in the Almighty God ,
The day will come when you will have to answer for your
Ways .
( if there is no hell or heaven what will happen with people like hitler when they die , or murdering child molesters, do they just die and thats it). I know that is not the way it will go down.

/\ if he's wrong with that statement above then live like an animal and do as you please, get drunk, get your dick wet for a few minutes and catch aids... but if he's right??? I've been married over 32 years, she puts up with a lot of my shit, and I her's... but that and faith will only bring lasting true happiness.